An enormous number of life changes have happened since I last laid out a real blog post, none of which are particularly interesting, and all of which involve me sending my bank account update emails straight into my spam folder every month. Life.
Anyway, back to things of actual blogportance.
I boycotted my beloved Thought Catalog after my roommate and I attended a semi-disastrous Ryan O'Connell-sponsored happy hour a few weeks ago. It wasn't disastrous, actually, so much as it was swarmed with every lifelorn twenty-something in the five boroughs, and cemented my horrible, creeping notion that I AM A CLICHE. I AM NOT UNIQUE. Free booze, though, so that was a plus.
Anyhoo. So, I stopped reading Thought Catalog for a few weeks in order to purge myself of the twee and precocious. But one of my NYC buddies posted this article, which documents the relationship newcomers have to New York as they live here over time. It's full of the usual litany of memories - high rent, love-hate relationship, the moment one realizes he or she really is one with the city.
It's a strange thing for me to read, though. New York isn't some place I moved to in hopes of making it big. New York isn't really a new adventure for me at all. I rode the subway the other day (like I do every day) and marveled at how I've been here for five months, and train throttles aren't novel to me anymore. But taking the subway, or strolling down 7th Avenue, almost getting run over by a taxi -- these things were all part of an old life of mine, and now they've merely crept back in. These things were never novel to me. There has been no moment where I've finally felt a part of New York, because it's always been a part of me.
Maybe that's what makes it hard for me to live here. It's too easy, in a way. I don't get excited when I manage to get from point A to point Q correctly. I don't make a connection with the city the way I did with Rome or Baltimore, because I've never felt like New York was a place I needed to conquer.
Maybe it's time for a new adventure. Maybe I need time away before I return again.
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